yehee ! finally, my first post . truth is, aku nda taw maw tulis apa . just suddenly have the feeling to write to him . . ahaa . him ? sepa tu ? dia la . DB . walaupun adalah agak impossible utk dia baca post ini . just want to convey my feelings, that's all . that special someone :) okaii . let's get started .

 -p/s : peringatan . benda ini mgkin akan membuat anda bosan, jd awal" laa get out yaa

 Dear DB , [pok mcm surat la kunu]
 aku sayang kau . kau taw ba juga kan ? haha . maluu . kau taw ? aku sngt,brabis gmbira mcm maw matii msa aku dpt kontek sma kau . dreams come true laa katakn . thanks a lot yaa . really, i'm grateful for that . thank you for giving me happiness . i mean it :)

 aku rsa la kan, aku start minat sma kau time aku form2, walaupun nda brabis. haha . minat gtu" ja . hehe . almaklumlah, couple urg kan . msa tu, nda taw knapa , aku rsa kau sngt,...?? sngt apa ? aku pun nda taw . haha . undescribable kali aa . sngt la mnarik hatii . eseh . getee :/ tp memandangkan masa itu aku couple urg, maka aku pun diam" la seja . haha .

 bnrnya, i have something to say ba ne, haha . aku mnta maaf kalo aku slalu kacau kau . aku mnta maaf kalo aku bikin kau sasak . aku mnta maaf sbb slalu blg 'sorii' sma kau . ntah la knapa . ep kn ada msalah kyakinan diri . tu la psal . hee . tp aku bgini pun sbb aku risau kau kburingan smes aku . just now, you said that you were getting sick of me saying 'sorry' all the time . again, i'm sorry :( sorry, but i just can't help feeling sorry . you know, you're always making me wonder whether you're bored or not sms-ing with me . that's why, i can't help but think that i'm disturbing you .

 tahun ini, tahun 2012 . kau SPM . yaa SPM . mksudnya, tahun dpan aku nda dpt jmpa kau lagi . you know, i cried because of that . haha . mihirr kan . tp apa ble buat . mmg sda bgitu prasaan aku . ugh . bila la aku dpt jmpa kau lagii ? just thinking about it makes me want to shed tears . well, i'm holding it in right now . haha . as i told you , i can't stop thinking about you . every seconds or moments, there will always be you in here . in my own little world . ugh . i'm missing you soo bad right now . :'(

 DB , thank you for your kind words . they were great help for me . even if it's just one simple message, it means a lot to me . aa . aku takut . aku takut aku nda dpt lg mcg kau yg mcm gtu . argh . knapa ba aku ne ?! mcm urg nda btul sda . aku cuma dpt berharap, nda lebih dari itu . aku nda dpt pksa kau supaya perasaan kita sma . sbb tu la, nnti kalo kau sda jmpa ssorang yg kau btul" suka, bgitau aku . it will be hard for me, but i'll endure it . somehow :(

 kau taw, tiap masa aku tunggu kau sms dulu . sbb aku nda maw kacau kau . tp kau sda blg, jgn tkut" maw sms kau . aku sngt gembira kau cakap gitu . tp aku ttap takut maw sms . sbb apa ? sbb seriously, aku rsa kau keburingan . you rarely ask me anything . it was mostly me who did the asking . thus, i'm embarassed . sorry to say this, but it feels like you were not interested at all . i'm not tired of you, just tired of myself . i hate the fact that i don't have the confidence . you were clearly nice to me . i should be thankful for that . aghh . i'm sorry for thinking this way .

 ********e ******i*, you mean a whole lot to me . more than you could ever possibly imagine . probably . i want to stay by your side . i want to look at you every single seconds . sorry for the ke'mihir'an . -_- feeling pula aku buat post ne .

 don't you ever feel sorry . it's not your fault . it's mine . i myself who made me like this . jd, jgn risau psal apa" . :D

 ba, last but not least, aku sayaang kau :)

 **p/s : you never failed to make me smile . and it will always remain that way :D



 sincerely, THEDOODLER
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